...compassion will never be wrong".
Exactly. Compassion for yourself and others is a wonderful thing to practice and easier for those of us who are naturally compassionate.
My day's message from Yogi tea. I bought a box yesterday Yogi Choco tea. Each teabag has a message. I usually save them. I collect. I am an artist. Artists collect for inspiration.
Grizzly day. I was going to Ditchling with a friend and we both cancelled. Instead, I needed to cook - from my Thursday organic veg box (courtesy Barcombe Nurseries) Transpires that my friend is also cooking today and is coming over with her culinary delights. We can care and share.
It's Friday, my 'very little' day. It is the beginning of my weekend. I discovered this by noticing how exhausted I usually feel by Friday, and I began to regard it: 'my weekend starts today'.
It works for me, even though I had a fair amount of admin to do this morning and some fruit harvesting. One of my apples is the size of a grapefruit, diameter 11cm, circumference 29cm. Mammoth!
I can see some apple chutney, cakes, tarts, crumbles and fruit jams coming on and soon I will be making my wax fir-cone firelighters - for Christmas gifts. I did not make them last year. I was in recovery, I had no energy or enthusiasm (that usually follows a breakdown) and I was more or less forcing myself back on my feet. Tiny steps.
I have ordered some linen samples. I have some sewing ideas and some natural beauty product ideas. Some lucky people this year (ie people whom I like/love/appreciate) will receive.
Today I learned not to drive with a migraine. Every time that I do so, it ends in something...not so good. Scratched the side of my car. I have noticed that it is very slightly dented. I have an etching product that removes the worst of the damage. Car washed and etched. Tick. What weather to do it in! Very fast and strong winds here today.
The Citizens Advice branch of Victim Support have phoned. They are to discuss what other steps I need to follow preceding the court case in January, for my sense of safety and personal preparation and an option of dates to view the court and look at the possible alternative entrances to the venue - as I will not be using the main one (personal choice).
There will be more paperwork to complete before the trial. I am not dwelling on it, and refuse to do so. I am believing that everything will work out well. I intend this, and that the situation will come to fair justice.
I am focussing on the good aspects of the trauma, how I dealt with it, what I have learned from it, how it has affected me and how I am having to challenge it in order to achieve justice. I am considering myself lucky, because it could have been a lot worse. I could have been raped or murdered.
I am lucky to have plenty of profession support and from my nearest and dearest.
I am very grateful for all of this.
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