Hallow'een tomorrow and my windows are decorated....except I have double booked.
I have a theory that I often wish to be two places at once. Maybe it's a Sagittarius/Ophiuchus thing. May be it's the 'dual sign' symptom of having two sides. Maybe it is because I am a busy lady.
I often double book.
Today I will be making hallow'een spooky stuff and pumpkin carving with my friend and her kids for a couple of hours today. I have realised that I will be at an improv workshop on the evening of all hallows and will not be able to trick or treat.
Now that my baby is all grown up and doing 'her', I miss the years that we would spook ourselves us, carve pumpkins, and go out tricking and treating with her friends...it was always great fun, and with a flask of hot spicey mulled wine...it was an annual seasonal treat.
My daughter is not keen on fireworks displays, she does not like the noise. So we used to 'half-do' fireworks night. We compromised it. in truth I am not keen on the danger aspect of it. I have been to many of the Lewes celebrations and the random throwing of 'rookies', used to scare me.
I remember one year when I was standing on the Cliffe high street bridge (without my daughter, who I had left by the campfires with a friend's mum for a short time so that she felt safe) I was overwhelmed, suddenly, with terror. There were rookies going off everywhere and it felt very chaotic.
Someone threw a rookie very close to me and I was startled to the point of panic attack. I remember this desperate need to get back to my daughter, and to check on her safety. I remember thinking, "If that had got me in the face, blinded me...I would not be able to see my daughter's beauty again. My daughter needs me and needs me to be safe".
I will never forget feeling so very relieved when I got back to the campfire to see her in the caravan, helping to make food and chatting away to my friend's mum, who said to me, "What a lovely little girl, she's very bright". I thought, "Well, yes, she is my little star", and I thanked her implicitly for having babysat.
I have the memory of an elephant : )
Just because my daughter is all grown and doing her own thing is not going to stop me from enjoying this years events. There are always other kids who want to go spooky. There is always a display of pyrotechnics somewhere nearby.
How did the last month fly by? November soon, Guy Fawkes Night, a couple of family get togethers, and my running club annual Christmas feast, my birthday, the beginning of the advent season, Christmas and then the new decade.
There's a lot of celebrations (yay, yay, yay) up and coming. Three more weeks of spooky Scorpio season and into celebratory Sagittarius season. The new decade is only weeks away. I like that. I like to look towards the future.
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